I think not working is keeping me feeling sad. All I do is stay in the house, do homework, housework and spend all my time with my kids. Don't get me wrong, I like spending time with my kids and everything but I need some adult time too. My husband and I haven't been out on a date since our anniversary in December. It's nice being so close to family and what not but they don't take both kids overnight unless I beg. They will take Jarrett all the time overnight but not Joel. I guess it is easier to have a night out when you only have one kid. We have to do something soon before I go crazy.
The other thing that makes me sad lately is Justin's off hours. I feel like I never get to see him because by the time he gets home from work I have to start homework and then after I am done with that I'm exhausted and it is usually late so I have to go to bed in order to get up early for Jarrett.
I hardly ever have any time for myself. I have to wait for Justin to be home to take a damn shower because if I am out of ear shot for more than 5 minutes in this house, someone is crying, usually Joel but Jarrett will too sometimes. People should be a fly on the wall when I have to go to the bathroom. My kids cry and whine for something EVERY TIME I have to go to the bathroom or want to go outside for a smoke. I need a break. Even as I type this my kids are fighting and yelling back and forth and asking me for stuff. Imagine that............
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