Feeling SOOO much better today....

I had a day by myself yesterday and I feel tons better. Went to my mom and dad's house to clean and stayed for dinner. Had a blast with my dad. He is so funny. Today I get to get out of this house again. I may be working out in the hot sun today but at least I'll be out of this house. I'm going with my dad to help him with some sidework that he is doing for some friends of my aunt.

I don't feel as sad today or angry with the world. I'm so glad that I feel better because I hate feeling sad.

Feeling a little down lately....

I think not working is keeping me feeling sad. All I do is stay in the house, do homework, housework and spend all my time with my kids. Don't get me wrong, I like spending time with my kids and everything but I need some adult time too. My husband and I haven't been out on a date since our anniversary in December. It's nice being so close to family and what not but they don't take both kids overnight unless I beg. They will take Jarrett all the time overnight but not Joel. I guess it is easier to have a night out when you only have one kid. We have to do something soon before I go crazy.

The other thing that makes me sad lately is Justin's off hours. I feel like I never get to see him because by the time he gets home from work I have to start homework and then after I am done with that I'm exhausted and it is usually late so I have to go to bed in order to get up early for Jarrett.

I hardly ever have any time for myself. I have to wait for Justin to be home to take a damn shower because if I am out of ear shot for more than 5 minutes in this house, someone is crying, usually Joel but Jarrett will too sometimes. People should be a fly on the wall when I have to go to the bathroom. My kids cry and whine for something EVERY TIME I have to go to the bathroom or want to go outside for a smoke. I need a break. Even as I type this my kids are fighting and yelling back and forth and asking me for stuff. Imagine that............