Well, lately things have been very stressful. Between getting turned down for jobs, school , the house, the kids and my stomach issues I have not been sleeping well. I am feeling overwhelmed with everything. I think I was less overwhelmed and less stressed when I was working a full time job as well as doing everything else. My stomach ulcers are flairing up lately which is caused by my stress. Because of my stomach issues, I have been getting behind on assignments for school since I am completely wiped out every day.
I only have 12 more classes before I graduate. I am worried about this too. After I graduate, am I going to find a job at least closely related to the field that I am going to school for? Or, am I going to have a $60,000 debt that I will have to pay back and never get a job in my field (my debt isn't that much but you know what I mean)? I am freaking out about this. I can't believe that it has been almost 3 years since I went back to college. I am actually sick over graduating too. I don't want to be done with school. I love school. I do want to go back and get my Master's degree but I know that probably won't happen ever. I just can't afford it.
That is another thing that bugs the shit out of me. I can't get a damn job. I am constantly worried about money. I feel like I am not helping my family. Even though, I am saving us money by not having the kids in day care and what not. The other thing is how am I going to afford to pay off my student loans. I just can't understand why people like me (meaning, people in the lower income bracket) cannot get help paying for school. All the money that the government spends on crap but they can't help people get an education or give more money to schools for our children to get a good education.
Eh....I'm going to have a stroke if I can't settle myself down.
